If you’ve been following me for a while, you know that I have a monthly self care series that includes tips & ideas on how to practice self love.
Well, I have to be honest with you all- this was my favorite series on the blog BUT I rarely ever followed my own advice. I kind of let self care escape me this year. I almost feel like a fraud since I talked about self care so much but barely indulged in any. The most “self care” I practiced was face masks & fun with essential oils. I did not partake in any emotional self care. Which unfortunately did a number on my relationships this year, most importantly the relationship with myself.
I have been burning the candle at both ends- trying to run a successful blogging business, work full-time, be present in my relationship & be the best mom I can be to Eva (a bit dramatic I know to those of you who are real moms to actual human beings). All while also dealing with pressures of society such as you should be married by now, own a home & have children. Juggling all of these aspects while not taking time out for me made everything come crashing down. How could I be preaching about self care every month when I barely take time to even read a book nowadays?
This year has taught me that it’s time to seriously focus on myself in 2020. Nothing will last on a shaky foundation. My life will not move forward or prosper when I come to the table with a cup half full. Any relationship will suffer if you are showing up as half a person who doesn’t entirely love themselves. I think I needed this major shift in order for things to change.
It’s time to find my groove again. Time to fall in love with myself again. Time to practice ALL the self care advice I’ve been preaching about the past year. Blogging was always my “me time” and my creative, happy place. I let it become just another job. Creating content for likes & more followers, instead of creating content that I generally loved & wanted to put out there. I don’t want my blog to just become pretty outfits & fluff pieces. I want create substance & value for my audience- dig a bit deeper then just what the new trend in skincare is. Don’t get me wrong, I love fashion & shopping so you’ll still see that on here but I want to go beyond that.
So that being said, my focus of 2020 is to simply live my life, according to me. I’m not going to let anyone’s opinions hold me back from living my best life. Time to just let go of control & see where this year takes me. I always like to pick a focus word for the beginning of every year.
My word for 2020 is patience.
Time to be patient with the timing of my life. I am trusting the universe to lead me to where I’m supposed to go. The next phases in my life will happen when they’re supposed to, not a minute sooner. It’s time to be present & enjoy the exact moment I’m in instead of trying to rush to the next chapter (or what society thinks the next chapter should be). It’s time to give myself grace & not beat myself up for small insignificant things that don’t matter. Life is too short to not be completely head over heels in love with yourself.
Things will fall into place…..I just have to be patient.
My goal for 2020 is to be open & honest with you. And for you to know I’m here, going through the same struggles as everyone else. And I am here to help you in any way that I can.
What’s your word for 2020?