Well this year has been a rollercoaster for us so far….
I’ve been super quiet on social media & my blog for a few reasons. For starters & the good news- WE BOUGHT A HOUSE! This has been a long time coming for Alex & I. We were planning on moving last year, but then Covid hit & I lost my job so we put all our plans on hold.
But it’s finally happening, we’re moving….to Pennsylvania!
As much as I love Connecticut & am sad to leave- this is the right move for us. CT is just becoming too expensive & I just don’t want to fall into the trap of living above our means or trying to keep up with the “CT” lifestyle. I’ve lived here all my life & just ready for something different. All my friends, family & clients are still CT based, so I’ll be back and forth (you can’t get rid of me that fast!).
We’re moving to the Bucks Country area in Pennsylvania (only two hours away from where we currently live). It’s such a quiet area, definitely more rural but exactly what we were looking for. The house is a fixer upper- it has GREAT bones but just needs a little TLC to update and modernize it. Get ready for some major home content!!
Now on to the sad news….
We found out in January that we were pregnant and then in February we sadly suffered a miscarriage. I’ve had no motivation to show up on here & pretend everything was ok and normal when it wasn’t. Alex & I are heartbroken, but also hopeful that we’ll get the family we’ve dreamed about someday.
Miscarriage is a topic that not many talk about & I totally understand why. It can leave you with feelings that are isolating, shameful, rage & overall sadness. As a woman, you tend to put the blame on yourself when in fact there’s NO ONE to blame for this. I’ve been feeling ALL the emotions & unless you’ve been through it yourself, it’s just hard to explain.
We are both so grateful for the support we’ve been shown from our friends & family.
And Alex has been amazing, seriously husband of the year. For dealing with the few weeks I was pregnant (extreme exhaustion = no food in the house), my mood swings, the crying fits I had when we found out we miscarried then all the stress of buying a new home. He’s been my rock, my best friend & honestly there’s no one else I’d rather go through life with.
I know the topic of miscarriage can be triggering for some, but I only bring it up in hopes that I make one person feel less alone in this. There’s nothing anyone can do or say to make you feel better. But hearing other friend’s stories about miscarriage has made me feel less alone. It’s crazy how 1 in 4 women experience this, but it’s rarely discussed. I never even knew there were different types of miscarriage (we had a silent miscarriage that resulted in a D&C).
I’ve also learned that it’s ok to feel how you feel- no matter what. You don’t want to talk about it- cool. You want to tell every person in your life- that’s fine too. There’s no right or wrong way to deal with a miscarriage. Everyone’s feelings are valid. You are not alone!
Having the house to focus on is a welcome distraction, but we can’t help but get a little sad when we think about the tiny little bedroom that was going to be the nursery. Keeping busy, choosing to stay positive & believing that we’ll get to fill our new home with babies one day is what keeps us going.
So that was long & winded, thanks for taking the time to read if you’re still here! I plan on getting back on track with showing up & creating content, slowly but surely!